you and me

if i were to blog about you.
really, i wouldn't know what to say.
I keep saying in my thoughts that I want you.
but i kept pushing you away with all this negativity i have inside.

yesterday, somebody asked me
what my plans were for you.
i had nothing to say.
It turned out, my plans never included you.

so is it any wonder
how until now,
you're still not here?

and though it bugs me
every single day being without you...
I am in someways enjoying it too?
and that I have to change the way i think about you.

you and me.
is it ever going to happen?
or will it be just as i plan it to be.
that's just it.
there's nothing.